Madness

Picasso’s portrait of ME. ***   The following was written during a particularly dark time. It cannot be used to judge me today. I am reposting it after two years. I had deleted it because I was afraid someone would read it. I ‘m not afraid anymore.     Sometimes I am convinced I am […]

Storms

“After the Storm”  Acrylic  (unfinished)   The booming crash of thunder could be heard through the nightmare I was navigating last night.  I have dreams that could be movies.  Last night was in the horror genre.   The lightning seen through my eyelids was in the dream too.  I woke myself up when to watch another […]

Brothers

I have several brothers and sisters.  Three brothers and three sisters to be exact, though not all from the same parents.  My oldest brother had a heart attack recently.  We have the same father. My Dad called me last month to tell me my brother had the heart attack, but the prognosis was good.  The doctors inserted a stent and […]

Travel

  I haven’t done much traveling.  But next month I’ll be in Paris, France for twelve days.  It’s really hard to believe. I think of this trip as some sort of gift or consolation prize.  “You lose, so here, go to Paris with your artist daughter who needs some fun.”  I was more than a little surprised.  […]

Love

  Some say we learn what we live.  I think those people have it half right.  We live what we believe despite what we learn.  At least eventually…  When you’re a kid, you are sort of stuck with what you’ve got.  Some adults can stay stuck if they choose and never go beyond what they […]

Anger

Anger lives all by himself in a small shack at the edge of town.  Rumor has it that his walls are made of solid stainless steel because he never wants to deal with home repair.  He spends much of his time hiding.  He thinks if people don’t see him they won’t believe that he’s been […]

Boys

  I had six boys.  Three girls were spaced amongst them, but my first and last child were boys.  I’ve always liked boys.  Girls are a little bit more complicated. I volunteered as a chaperone for a field trip with my youngest son’s class to a nearby planetarium.  My son’s teacher knew I had several kids, so she gave […]

The Road Ahead

  It seems like every time I think I’m at a point where I can adjust and move forward in earnest, something comes down and knocks me off track.  Tripped up and confused, once again, I have to fight my way through confidence booby-traps and fearsome self-doubt, spitting excuses out of my mouth, just to scramble back up to a place where I can see my […]

Names

We usually have no say in the names we are given or the subsequent “shorts” our names evolve into.  A nickname can be part of the whole or completely unrelated to our given name.  Some people end up with names they really like and others have a difficult time with theirs.  Names that are hard to spell or […]